at college group tonight

i decided that i worry too much. We were talking about Matthew 6, and the reasons why we shouldn't worry because everything is in God's hands. He has everything planned out for us; we just need to trust Him and have faith in Him and our burdens will be taken care of.

So in our small groups, we were talking about our top 5 worries. Mine are: School, Money, Work, The Future, and Relationships. When I first said relationships, I meant having a boyfriend, but then when we talked about it further I realized I worry about all relationships. I analyze all of my interactions with my friends, with acquaintances, with people I don't even know. Anna said I might be looking for social acceptance- I'll buy that. I've never been popular, but I've never been the outcast. I've always been the funny one or Trevor's little sister. I have always had a lot of friends, but I never let anyone get close enough to really know me. Like, Talia and Laurel are different. I've known them both for so long, I don't scrutinize our conversations or other interactions. Things are always just okay with those two because they have both accepted me for who I really am. I think that I am so scared to let people see me, because I am afraid of rejection. But am I the only one like that? I doubt it. I don't think anyone likes to be rejected- except maybe Nader. Has he said if he's running for President this year? Oh I don't know, I'm off topic. I think what I am going to work on is my need for social acceptance. I need to just let myself be and stop overthinking everything. Lauren pointed out tonight that I was talking a mile a minute. Well, that's how I typically am. I have ADHD and my brain moves faster than I can speak. So I try and get all of my thoughts out before I lose them but then I'm going so fast people are like, Is she on crack? That's something else I'll work on, slowing down. Slowing down my thoughts and slowing down my words. I bet I probably freak some people out with that. Wow. Okay I'm done talking now. I need to sleep!