there is a strange man

sleeping in the bedroom next to mine. It's weird. My dad's friend is in the middle of a divorce and he just closed on his house today. So until he finds a rental home, he's staying with us. I haven't had a boy living in my house for over three years- well, since Trevor chose to leave. It's already so different- like I can't use my garage door opener because my dad doesn't want Jim to wake up. And I can't set the house alarm. I like the house alarm thank you very much. I feel safer knowing that all of the doors are armed and if anyone tries to break in and kill us all, we'll be safe because a super loud alarm will go off. Wow. I think I watch too much ID TV.

ID TV. That is a whole different story. It's this channel where there are crime shows 24/7. I watch it before I go to sleep- it relaxes me. Is that not so bizarre? Last night it was a show about Spree Killers. Like they explained their crimes, interviewed them and did all of these psychological tests on them and stuff. For most people you would think that shows like that right before bed would give them the heebee jeebies. Not me. I guess that makes me crazy. But they are the only things that help me to sleep.

I can't ever sleep. I am such an insomniac. I think too much before I go to bed. Man, tonight is going to suck. Mostly because I have a stupid boy on my mind. I was telling Lo about him and she told me that he likes me. But I don't know, I just can't fathom that. In high school I always had a lot of guy friends- mostly because of my brother, but they all thought of me as the best girl (space) friend. Never in a romantic way. To think that a boy would like me now, is just so different than what I'm used to. I'm comfortable being the friend, not the girlfriend. But now I'm thinking about it even more than I was before. Boys are so complicated. Whatever, I'm sure he doesn't like me anyway. Lo's just trying to be nice and boost my confidence around this guy.

Man, I love Lo! She is just a great person. And she puts up with all of my crap, she should earn a gold star for that alone. Not to mention she listens to everything that I have to say (which is usually A LOT), the changing of all of my plans, and she helps me with my math homework because I totally suck at math. I feel so blessed to have a friend like her. :)

Okay so I have to stop blogging to no one in particular and start writing my paper on Carson McCullers.