chris brown

can take me down anytime. i'm watching his video right now. so hot.

today was the elkins going away party. it makes me way sad i'm not going to see them around anymore.

what also makes me sad is, well, life. and the fact that boys are so dang complicated. is it so hard for them to be the chaser? i hate having to be the cat, seriously, i just want to be the mouse. is it so bad that i want someone to want me? (thanks cheap trick!)

sorry. i'm a little drunk right now. and kind of depressed. which sucks. i like being the happy drunk. not the sad one.

let's try this tomorrow.

I'm in Hanna right now

and a girl wearing a tail just passed by me. Seriously. A straight up raccoon tail. If there was a way to take a picture of it without being completely obvious I would, but seeing as she is wearing a tail, I think she may a little unpredictable and I really would not like to take my chances throwing down with a chick in a tail.

Besides that, school is going pretty well. Then again, I'm only halfway through my second day. Hanna is just as weird as usual. I walked in here from my history class and as I'm passing through the doors there is a girl, who was belting out some random song. It would have been one thing if she was singing along with her headphones, but no, she was just going along, singing some random tune at the top of her lungs. Classes are good so far. I'm taking English 101, World Civilizations 126, Political Science 111, and Math 091. The people are pretty cool, with the exception of one chick in my English class that I would love to take down a notch and this dude in World Civ that thinks he is God's gift to ancient history. No joke.

I was watching SNL this past weekend and Kings of Leon were on. I've decided they are my new favorite. Random I know but I'm listening to Sex on Fire right now. I highly recommend.

i just worked a 12 hour day

with the triplets and i'm about ready to shoot myself. or have a whiskey sour. that sounds really good right now. :)

some big news, i got a job. for a family in NW portland. there are two kids, emma 11, and max 9. it's going to be in the afternoon, i'll pick them up from school and depending on the day we'll either go to yana's house or tom's house.

i'm really excited to start on monday. but right now i'm exhausted and have got to go to sleep.

Michael Phelps is on

SNL right now. He's kind of funny. And again, his face bothers me. Which is really unfortunate because he has a smokin' body.

Today I went to Stewart's soccer game. They won 11-1. It's going to be just like last season. Tristan and Morgan basically dominate the game. Stewart is getting a lot better. He is handling the ball really well. He's such a G.

After that I went out to Ticketmaster to buy Jason Mraz tickets and they were SOLD OUT! Ticketmaster broke my heart! :(

However, the Pleasure Party Brandi had this evening made up for it. Mostly with coconut rum and some amazing people. It was pretty fun after I got over all of the awkwardness that came with two of Trevor's old classmates showing up. I guess Rian is dating Brandi's brother but I did not know that Brandi even HAD a brother. But Shauna, the consultant made everything really fun and I even ended up buying some stuff. Just some body spray, it was about all I could imagine bringing into my house. Definitely not Chuck. :) :)

After the party I must have said something self-deprecating because Laurel was all like, "Bev, you have got to stop talking about yourself like that!" I guess I don't realize I talk negatively about my body. I think I am pretty; I like my eyes, my smile, and my hair. And people always compliment me on those things. But no one has every said anything positive about my weight. So since they don't, I just assume it's a major turnoff for people. Lo and Gonzy were talking the other day and Lo told me that Gonzy said I am a really great person, and a lot of guys would date me, but I'm so negative about my size and guys don't like that. Well, I have not encountered any of those guys that like bigger girls. Seriously, are they all taken? And if not, why aren't they in Vancouver? I guess my goal is to at least appear self-confident, even if I'm not feeling so great about myself...

vmas

i'm watching them right now, so that way i can fast forward through russell brand's dribble about the jonas brothers virginal status.

so a few things:
1. russell brand. no more hosting gigs for you. you were funny about one whole time during the whole two hours.
2. miley cyrus. stop talking. seriously, you say one thing then totally do another. i'm so ready for you stop "just being miley."
3. jonas brothers. i'm with katy perry on this one. their future wives are going to be the luckiest women in the world because those boys are hot.
4. lil wayne. seriously, i love you just as much as the next christian white girl but what was with your outfit? i get you paid a lot of money for those tattoos and you want to show them off. so i get the whole no shirt thing. but can i suggest a belt? seriously, i do not care about your polo ralph lauren boxer briefs. next time just take the leap and do the whole naked thing. also what is with the whole grabbing your crotch thing whenever you move. honestly i'm suprised you didn't just whip it out and start singing the mario bros theme song. (dane cook reference)
5. paramore. haley what was with your own dj diddles performance? (another dc reference) you did totally rock your song though. also i love the fact that you love shia laboeuf. because when he isn't getting smashed and driving around in his truck he's pretty hot too.
6. rihanna. you killed it. that is all.
7. p!nk. you are my idol. if i could be 1/1239487308463510083708915687543981283765 as badass as you, my life would pretty much rock.
8. mclovin. amazing.
9. slipknot. your masks scare me.
10. jordin sparks. kudos on your promise ring. i'm glad you're not a slut.
11. aubrey o'day. you should wear a promise ring.
12. christina aguilera. loved it. but um, superbitch? there wasn't another song title available?
13. britney spears. ditto on your comeback. all 3 moonman? you rock.
14. tokio hotel? who are you? seriously? bueller? bueller?
15. ll cool j. mama said knock you out!
16. paris hilton. no. go away please. thanks.
17. kid rock. i hate to admit this, but i love your new country song. oh and thanks for washing your hair. you didn't look as dirty as usual.
18. the ting tings. where did you come from? just because they play you on the hills all of a sudden makes you worthy of a vma? i'm going with no.
19. katy perry. i like you. i don't care if you kiss girls or not. you're funny.
20. kanye west. thanks for not whining about not winning this year. wait? were you even nominated? ha. i guess not. i liked the ninjas though. nice choice.

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channels and nothing is on TV. This is so pepperoni. Sorry, inside joke. :)

i can't sleep

so i'm watching an fbi files episode on the unibomber. fun fun.

i had the trips today. they were pretty good. really exhausting. but pretty good. sam has learned to bite his brothers. he left a crazy bite mark on gio today. it was intense.

but i have them again tomorrow so i'm going to sleep. but i've got to finish this unibomber thing first.

night.

check out this site.

it definitely gave me a laugh. and a new appreciation for geeks. :)

http://www.wired.com/culture/lifestyle/multimedia/2008/09/gallery_reader_geek_tattoos?slide=1&slideView=10

sarah palin

should be the best vp ever. just kidding! seriously, what's her issue? she's got juno for a daughter and she cut state funding for sex education last year? hmm i wonder if that was a factor in her daughter getting knocked up? and the baby-daddy is going on the campaign with her. is that really a good decision? yeah, i don't think so.
i'm hoping that she doesn't sway female voters just because she's a woman...

my mom

called today. she was all, "what have you done today?" of course, i said "nothing", because really all i have done was tune my guitar, clean out my dvr, and waste time on facebook. she then she starts asking me all of these stupid questions, "have you ran the dishwasher? did you finish your laundry? clean your room?" "well, no mom, nothing really means nothing." i don't know why is made me so upset, i was more irritated than anything. probably because i haven't done anything today. i'm still in my pjs, i did manage to eat breakfast (about five hours after i woke up), and brush my teeth. because honestly, who wants to go the entire day without brushing their teeth. dirty. however, i did accomplish something today. i found my new tattoo! now all i need to do is run it past austin to see if the translation is correct and then i'm getting it done.
あなたの心に耳をit means listen to your heart. i'm going to get it vertically between my shoulder blades. i'm so excited!! :)

movie night

was good. a little drama. which is typical for when you get so many people together. brandon was so freaking hilarious. seriously, that kid. brandon if you are reading this, YOU ARE FUNNY! just fyi. i felt kind of bad though because jamie and i kept texting each other while we were watching the goonies and i thought i was being a rude hostess. but i guess we wouldn't have had to text if there hadn't been that drama...

anyways, it was fun. i'm glad i had it.

i found a new song. so what by P!NK. she calls her ex a tool in the chorus. which i thought was funny. basically i love love love her voice. when i just need to rock out, she is my go to singer. the video is pretty rad too, you should check it out. http://new.music.yahoo.com/videos/--184533736

yesterday

was amazing. Sunday Summer Camp went really well considering the rain. Then Danger, Lindsey, and I went to Sonic after church. Which was a lot of fun. I forgot how much I enjoy hanging out with people. Well, the right people. I drove us back to the church to get Lindsey's car and we ended up having a 45-second dance party!


























































Danger was so not having the dance party. But it was still a lot of fun. I drove Alli home and I went over to Lo's for the BBQ. Which rocked! And I stayed sober (I sound like I belong in AA). I don't drink that much, just whenever I go over there. So it's a major thing that I did not get schnockered. After most of the people left, Eli, Zack and I watched Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End. Eli spent most of the movie in my lap. Which would have been fine, but he's 13. Seriously, that boy is the biggest man-ho ever. His mom, Brenda, thinks it's funny he hits on everyone. And she knows I would never do anything to/with him. Um, jailbait? I'm not that desperate. But I did sort of wish a guy my age would pay as much attention to me as Eli did...


me and P.

all of us. [me, john, jake (apparently, he's a G with his hood...), maddie (so crazy), jacob (looks like the guy from Men in Black- Vincent Dnofrio), zack, and eli (why is he touching his nipotle?)]

i am so

proud of myself. Tonight is the first night that I have come home from Lo's before midnight and completely sober! Even though they had my favorite mango rum, God gave me the strength to resist engaging in the activities of my friends and stay on the right track! I had a blast too! Even when Eli decided to use me as a pillow while we were watching Pirates of the Carribbean: At World's End. But it's way late and I've got to help Lo later today in her classroom so I'm off to bed. I'll write more about my day later because it was an AMAZING day.