AnnaMac and I

were talking tonight at CityFest and I don't what it is about this woman, but she has this look that's like, "You're not telling me something and you need to tell me. I know you'll feel better once it's off your chest so just let me know what's going on. Please?" Seriously, she can convey all of that with one single look. I was given this look today and I just sort of broke down. Told her about the comment made by my "Christian Sister", my drinking habits, and my feelings about myself and God. Basically I was just sobbing in the middle of Portland, of course in front of the twins, who, I don't know if they realize this, but I am ALWAYS crying in front of them. Maybe it's just bad timing or maybe they don't even notice, but I can count at least five separate occasions where they have been in my general vicinity and I've been crying. So embarrassing. Besides all of that, Anna and I prayed for my problems, I confessed my sins and asked Jesus to forgive me. I just felt like the whole time Jesus was just saying, "I love you so much! No matter what you do, I will always love you and I will always be there for you. I forgive you for making those choices. stop making yourself feeling guilty about it because it's over and done with now. Start from here. Right now. And never forget that I love you!" To say the least, it was amazing.

And then! Anna became AnnaMac. TobyMac came on and she just started jamming out- singing with him and jumping up and down! She was too funny!

I am so thankful that God has put Anna in my life; I don't know where I'd be if she wasn't around. I just feel like I can always tell her what I'm feeling without having to apologize or feel guilty. She is such a blessing to me. :)