Michael Phelps is on

SNL right now. He's kind of funny. And again, his face bothers me. Which is really unfortunate because he has a smokin' body.

Today I went to Stewart's soccer game. They won 11-1. It's going to be just like last season. Tristan and Morgan basically dominate the game. Stewart is getting a lot better. He is handling the ball really well. He's such a G.

After that I went out to Ticketmaster to buy Jason Mraz tickets and they were SOLD OUT! Ticketmaster broke my heart! :(

However, the Pleasure Party Brandi had this evening made up for it. Mostly with coconut rum and some amazing people. It was pretty fun after I got over all of the awkwardness that came with two of Trevor's old classmates showing up. I guess Rian is dating Brandi's brother but I did not know that Brandi even HAD a brother. But Shauna, the consultant made everything really fun and I even ended up buying some stuff. Just some body spray, it was about all I could imagine bringing into my house. Definitely not Chuck. :) :)

After the party I must have said something self-deprecating because Laurel was all like, "Bev, you have got to stop talking about yourself like that!" I guess I don't realize I talk negatively about my body. I think I am pretty; I like my eyes, my smile, and my hair. And people always compliment me on those things. But no one has every said anything positive about my weight. So since they don't, I just assume it's a major turnoff for people. Lo and Gonzy were talking the other day and Lo told me that Gonzy said I am a really great person, and a lot of guys would date me, but I'm so negative about my size and guys don't like that. Well, I have not encountered any of those guys that like bigger girls. Seriously, are they all taken? And if not, why aren't they in Vancouver? I guess my goal is to at least appear self-confident, even if I'm not feeling so great about myself...