i went hiking today.

let me tell you, not a good idea. i just about died going up there, i felt horrible because i was slowing everyone down, and i was mad at myself for two things. 1. because i was/am so freaking out of shape that i can't even climb a stinkin' hill. and 2. because i was complaining. lindsey was being so nice, she was like, just take it slow, baby steps. and i kept nagging her and i just hate doing that. so now here i am taking too many milligrams of ibuprofen and drinking gallons of water trying to combat the pain i know i am going to feel tomorrow. i actually feel more like i'm nursing a massive hangover, but thankfully i haven't been drinking today. or this weekend actually.

but i have been drinking more often. i haven't quite decided how i feel about it all. it's not like i'm getting wasted every night, making fool of myself and going home with some random guy. i'm just relaxing at the end of the day with a few friends and a couple of whiskey sours. there is such a negative stigma associated with underage drinking, at least in the States. if i was in mexico, canada, europe, ANYWHERE other than the States, it would be fine. and to be honest, i enjoy it. i'm with good people, in a controlled environment, i'm just relaxed and having fun. the only thing i worry about is what my friends would say.

well my church friends at least. i think you can drink and be a christian, but my whole problem is i'm not of age. which is a sin in their eyes. but you know, some people at that church think i'm sinner because of my tattoo. and because i support gay marriage and i'm pro-choice. it's frustrating because i am so liberal in my views yet i still love Jesus. and people think that isn't an option. i just don't understand why i can't be both.